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Tuesday, November 08, 2005

Learning The Words...

Lately it's been pretty frustrating being a dad. Cameron is a little over two now (Bday 8.19.03), but doesn't talk that much. Divorce can affect kids linguistically and pottypistically - meaning that certain kids Cam's age that are potty trained lose it and regress to diapers. Cam never really said much before Sarah left. He did say momma a lot, but that was his only word. After Sarah moved out he stopped saying momma. It was a whole month before he said another word which was Dada. He now says dada and momma, but not in addressing either of us. It's basically a response to my request.
So, it's getting frustrating not being able to communicate with Cam. I so want to be able to talk to him and use words and explain our days to each other and get him to grasp the deep recesses of the trinity, but he just won't get there soon enough! I mean c'mon he should have his own Blog already right!?! How's he going to get ahead in this world. Anyway, I know that certain kids have their own timeline for speaking. It's just frustrating for both of us now. He really really wants something and doesn't know how to ask for it. Typically, he'll resort to using some sort of whining sound. I think I'm pretty good at picking up on what he wants so in the recent past I've just been getting the stuff that he wants when he uses his whine sound.
Sunday I turned the corner. I no longer want to just get it for him without him attempting to speak what he wants. I think more and more it's frustration that will teach Cam to speak. I need to bring him to those points where he's willing to push through being uncomfortable and being set in his ways of whine - Where he gets to the lowest point of drab and sees that if he would learn to speak, if he would learn to ask for something then he could have it.
Then I came to the point of wondering how God relates to us or should I say how we relate to God. He says that if we ask for things in His will we can have them. Why do we not have? Because we do not ask says the book of James. Therefore, I wonder if God waits to gives us the things we truly want, because he's being patient with us, wanting us to learn and teaching us how to ask. Teaching us the words to use to ask. Cam can come to me and whine and I will comfort him, but I won't give him what he wants until he tries to speak and use the words for what it is he wants. God, then, comforts us while we learn to speak. While our hearts our molded into His perfect will.

1 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

Does this break the rule? I want to ask... so why am I scared to ask? What happens if you ask and God says no? That would suck.

11/08/2005 9:18 PM

 

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